i've been meeting with a Professional Listener. i need to hear myself say the words i think, which is kind of a big deal, because typically the words i think don't actually exist. they start as things i feel and dissolve from there. formulating feelings into words and then saying them out loud is a big deal. it takes assertiveness, and i'm not assertive. i'm a mirror. that's what i told my Professional Listener. i barely formulate words, and i don't formulate plans, and